Only You Can Satisfy...

On the second day of the fast I found myself listening to Misty Edwards "Lovesick." My cry these last two days has been "God consume me with thoughts of You as much as I am consumed by thoughts of food." It seems silly but if I am honest with myself I have thought about food, or the lack thereof, quit a few times. Last night at prayer all I could think about was a hamburger. Why? I don't know. Finally I got to the point where I had to say "Jesus Your my hamburger!" And that is not meant to degrade Him but meant to remind me that I am doing this for Him and for His purpose to be won in my life. He needs to be the ruler of my mind...of all my thoughts. Misty Edwards song is so relevant to my hearts cry right now:

Lovesick for my Beloved....my Beloved and my Friend
Only You can satisfy! Only You can satisfy!
Try as I may to chase another lover
I find there is there is no other
[all the other lovers fade away]
Only You can satisfy! Only You can satisfy!
And happy am I to live a hungry life
And blessed am I to thirst
And my desire for You, it is my gift within
I am blessed, I am blessed among men
This is the generation that's tried everything
This is the generation of Jacob
This is the generation thats done all those things
But only You can satisfy, only You can satisfy
This is the generation looking for the face of God
This is the generation of Jacob
This is the generation searching for the face of God
And only You can satisfy, only You can satisfy
And the Spirit and the Bride say "Come"
We say "Come"!

This is a week where my choice has been to give everything up to seek Him with everything I have. The reality is I don't feel like my everything is enough for all of Him. And its not. What a great God we serve. The beauty of relationship with Christ is that we don't need to have anything, or do anything...its in our desperation that He can be made real in our life. As the song said we have tried everything, we have done all those things but we can only be satisfied with Him and Him alone. Not Him plus something. Its in my desperation that He can become the ruler of my life. I have nothing, I am nothing, in myself nothing is good- but if I lay all of me down then He can come and fill me up. For way to long I have pretended to give up myself for Him, to sacrifice everything. But what is a fast if at the end I haven't gotten a new revelation of Christ. I am tired of never advancing. I am tired of always wanting to be somewhere but never getting there. My desire rigmy ht now is for Christ to become real in life. More real then the food I eat. In the movie August Rush there was a scene when August was talking to that young black girl as she was playing the piano. She simply asked him, "Do you like music." And August's simple quick reply was "Yes, more than food." And she just looked at him with that blank stare. ...

Yes. I love God. More than food actually. More than anything.